1: From Pain to Purpose, The Birth of My Healing Journey
I choose to focus on who I am rather than what I’m not (though I believe recognizing areas for growth is essential and are a sign of self-awareness and intelligence). I want to clarify that I’m not a doctor, scientist, or “expert” in Body-Mind Coherence. I am, however, a human being—an expression of love and light, just like you. I am, as we all are, a part of the vast unity of consciousness, sharing this experience in the physical realm we call Earth. For me, this reality is a beautiful, epic, challenging, joyful, frustrating, hilarious, and spectacular journey to share with others.
In early July 2022, just before my 40th birthday in September, I tested positive for COVID-19 for the first (and only) time. It felt like a very mild cold, but the anxiety and stress from the illness and all the horror stories and fear-based mindset we’d all been inundated with, flared up my long-standing back issues, which I’d been dealing with since I was 15 (more about this in the next blog post). I was nearly immobile for five agonizing months, with pain radiating from my lower back down to my ankle and, at times, all the way up my spine and into my right arm. There were countless mornings when my 9-year-old daughter had to help me put on my socks and shoes. The pain was unrelenting, whether I was standing, sitting, walking, or lying down—it was the definition of chronic pain.
Quick aside: The story I’m sharing in this post is the tipping point of when my healing journey began. Prior to this, it actually started back when I was 32 and was turned on to “The Secret” and The Law of Attraction…more about this in a future post.
After ten days of quarantine, I returned to my photography studio. As I was cleaning up, I noticed a woman running past. Not thinking much of it, I continued sweeping until she let herself in through the open door. She introduced herself as Crystal (who now goes by Indigo) and asked if I rented my studio to other photographers. I said yes, and soon we found ourselves in an unexpectedly deep and genuine conversation. I shared that for much of my adult life, I’d felt “stuck,” like I was pressed up against a thick glass door, able to see and feel what my life could be but somehow unable to break through.
She listened, understood, and suggested a podcast, then mentioned we should meet for coffee in a couple of weeks. When we finally met at a café near my studio a few weeks later, I shared more about my struggles, the feeling of being stuck, and the chronic pain I’d endured for almost 25 years. During our talk, she gently interrupted me and said, “You’re ready…you need to connect with my friend, Bijou.” She went on to tell me about a powerful plant medicine guide, someone who could support me in my healing journey. Little did I know, this was the start of a profound transformation.
Soon after, I connected with Bijou, and on September 7, 2022, I officially embarked on my healing journey. This journey has been about facing and processing the underlying issues that had caused my sense of stuck-ness, mental and emotional anguish, anxiety and depression and 25 years of chronic pain. Through this blog series, I’ll share the most impactful, beautiful moments that helped me move from pain to purpose and explore how Body-Mind Coherence has been at the heart of my healing.
The Next Blog…
In my next blog post, I’ll be diving into the fascinating concept of body-mind coherence and why it’s essential for every one of us. What exactly is body-mind coherence? It’s the powerful connection between our physical state and mental well-being, and how understanding this synergy can transform our lives. I’ll explore how achieving this harmony can enhance our overall health, boost emotional resilience, and foster a deeper sense of purpose. Whether you're seeking stress relief, personal growth or a greater sense of fulfillment, you won't want to miss the insights that can help you unlock your full potential!